2:15

hospital. children screaming. waiting room. anticipation. anxious to go in. "Mother, i don't think i want to." caving in. anxiety, fear, nerves. i'm shaking. i hated her. i don't want to come back ever again. i love my Mother. there is something vulnerable on the surface. i know where they're taking me. i don't want to leave. another waiting room. i hate these people. i am too grown for this treatment. stop talking to me like that. you are disgusting. Mother, i don't ever want to return. you can't take me there, i am begging you. cradled by my bed.